Yesterday my aunt put out a request on Facebook for songs to put into an anti-depression playlist. At first glance, I thought this was silly. But why? I personally live my emotions through music. The lyrics, the beat – it all comes together to express things that I otherwise can’t get out in my own words. I guess I don’t like the word “depression” and that’s what turned me off to the playlist idea.
Actually, Catherine is Nick’s aunt – but she’s the proverbial “cool aunt” so I’ve claimed her as my own J You can see her blog here. Anyway, she inspired me to put together my own playlist – one which I will call “Happy Music.”
Songs that make me happy:
- This is Your Life – The Killers
- You Make My Dreams Come True – Hall & Oates (When I hear this song I think of this movie scene and smile uncontrollably. Nick thinks of the Shorewood lipdub)
- White Houses – Vanessa Carlton
- What a Beautiful Day – Chris Cagle
- Where the Streets Have no Name – U2 (and a cover by Vanessa Carlton)
- Party Rock Anthem – LMFAO
- Strawberry Swing – Coldplay
- Mayberry – Rascal Flatts
- Stolen My Heart – Dashboard Confessional
- The Greatest Man That Ever Lived – Weezer
- We Found Love – Rhianna
- Fly – Nikki Minaj (“I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive….”)
Then again, there are times when I’m sad or frustrated and I often times use music to work my way through those emotions. I don’t like to complain or share my feelings on a regular basis so music is a great way for me to process my thoughts. I’ll listen to the sad songs that say all the things I can’t express and then move on. Living out the emotions but then getting over it. I’m not going to dwell on sadness or past hurts. I can be sad, be angry, be scared. Live the full range of emotions and be done with it. Walk away from my sadness, my anger, whatever it is I’m dealing with. Once I’ve felt it and expressed it, I can take action to move out of it.
I’m not going to go into it here, but I have gone through the whole depression thing (years ago) and it sucks. I think at some point though, you have to stop waiting for happiness to come find you and choose to be happy in the here and now. Back in my church days we used to hear “Fake it till you make it.” And that’s what I did…I acted happy, I did things a happy person would do – like get dressed and care about the day, dance around my living room, walk down the street smiling like an idiot for no good reason – until one day, I was happy and it was real. You really can’t sit around in your house and think depression is going to leave you. The mind, free to wander, will take you down some very dark paths…. Do things you’d do if you were happy. Don’t give yourself the time to think about how sad you are.
Happiness is often the result of being too busy to be miserable. ~ Anonymous.
The way I went through the stupidness of depression – yes, I’m calling it stupid – is much like this story. I’d been trying so hard to make so many people happy and be the “right” kind of person to please all these people that I’d lost sight of my own self and what makes me happy – once I came out of the sadness into what I’m going to call a second life (in no relation to this 2nd life) I had this badass sort of outlook on life: “this is who I am people so you better f-ing deal with it!” Now, when I get bummed out about something, I let myself feel that – feel sad but now dwell there. Songs help me do that.
Songs that help me work through other emotions:
- Fix You – Coldplay
- Hide and Seek – Imogen Heap
- The Sound of White – Missy Higgins
- Silhouette Serenade – Vendetta Red
- Halo – Beyonce
**I have a lot more songs to add to both of these lists but of course, wanting to write them, my brain has decided to stop working – I’ll update as I think of others.
So yeah, depression is stupid. I’ve been there and it sucks. Let’s just be happy