Sometimes a book catches you at just the right moment in life. And sometimes, not so much. I mentioned on Facebook that I’ve been in a bad book slump. It started last summer when I picked up Wild. Sure, lots of great reviews, best seller and all that but as I sat down to read it I just kept getting frustrated – I was in a really happy place and moving forward on projects and working hard, feeling settled – so reading a book about someone who continuously made bad decisions and then whined about the consequences, knowing they were still making bad decisions – yeah I couldn’t handle it. I threw the book away. That is the first and only book I have ever thrown away.
For Christmas I was given a book called The Goldfinch, again… great reviews, was and is a best seller and comes highly recommended. I slogged through that whole book just waiting for it to get better. To have some redeeming quality. But it was a book of sadness, constant drug use and things gone wrong because of poor choices and a complete lack of will power.
Nothing against either of these books. They are obviously well written to be able to illicit such a high response from someone – whether that is extremely positive for some or just incredibly negative for, well, me. And people like these books. I’ve had people recommend both to me since I finished them. Fine. They just weren’t for me in the moment of life I was in while reading them.
And then, Paper Towns happened.
I bought it on a whim – a flick through the Kindle store on my tablet before a run one day. And it happened: a book caught me at just the right moment.
So let’s go back…what’s the moment?
Nick was offered a job in Ohio. There I said it. It’s on the table and now you know it.
I do not want to move. I do not, absolutely at all want to even have the conversation about moving.
I want roots and a sense of community and a belonging to place and people.
He does not.
Well, he wants that with a very small group – namely, our family, which it turns out is not really roots at all as much as it is a traveling eco system of four individuals tied together by blood and commitment.
So we’re doing the whole marriage dance and we’re talking about it – from all sides and viewpoints and pros and cons and cons and cons…I mean, pros and cons period.
And then I read this book and it so beautifully describes not just how I feel about not moving but how I feel about moving and the “okay-ness” I can see in both options.
I highly recommend the book but I’ll admit, my opinion of it is definitely tainted by the place and the moment I am in currently – who knows how it will hit you.
Here are a few of my favorite quotes:
“That’s always seemed so ridiculous to me, that people would want to be around someone because they’re pretty. It’s like picking your breakfast cereals based on color instead of taste.”
“I realize that humans lack good mirrors. It’s so hard for anyone to show us how we look, and so hard for us to show anyone how we feel.”
“I’m not saying that everything is survivable. Just that everything except the last thing is.”
“All those paper people living in their paper houses, burning the future to stay warm. All the paper kids drinking beer some bum bought for them at the paper convenience store. Everyone demented with the mania of owning things. All the things paper-thin and paper-frail.”
And there are others, but I don’t want to ruin it for ya
It’s $4.99 on kindle. Seriously do yourself a favor and read it. It’s an easy, quick ready (aimed at YA) but it’s a story that really sticks. For me a least.
Today I am working from home. All day. No meetings except a board meeting for Junior League that isn’t until 7pm. So all day at home. I have gotten so much done and caught up on a bunch of projects which of course feels really good.
I made myself a batch of almond milk yesterday and so I have been enjoying home brewed coffee with my home-made almond milk AND totally sticking to my budget J
Later today I’m meeting up with Nick for a “date” at the gym before we pick up the kiddos.